Dear Miley Cyrus; Your best friend Lesley is kind of a bitch.

[cait]

Okay, you guys.  The cancellation of SGA has pretty much ruinned my life.  I had just posted my gaybashed John story, and was just checking to see if it had posted on the flist properly when I heard the news.  My first thought was: fuck this shit, it's not really going to happen.  Then I accepted.  My reaction to this has been to self harm as much as possible.  Yes, much like a Degrassi student with a razor and a forearm, I have started to hurt myself to relieve the pain.  Mostly, I read fic that I would never, ever have considered, because they  contain certain squicks that move me to tears.  For example, in the last few days, I have read stories that have include:

*RODNEY/JOHN CHEATING ON EACH OTHER D: D: D;
*They are seperated and angsty AND THERE MAY NOT BE A HAPPY ENDING D: D:
*THREESOMES/MORESOMES.  I'm sorry, I know some people like this, but I can not cope.
*Atlantis seceding from earth D: D: D:
*John and Rodney break up.  At any point.  Or attempt suicide. Or don't like each other
*ANGST.  CAN NOT COPE D:  D:  I READ DEATH FIC.  I CRIED.

However, I did find a really good fic where Rodney went nuts and started killing people, and John was just....'okay, buddy, do what you need to do.'

Also, I have had panic attacks that I need to finish every single fic in to-do folder, and there are so many of them.  Expect some crappy, half finished, fics that include character death and humiliation.  D:

Had anybody ever read that Smallville fic where Lana and Lex are together, and at Lana's request, Lex sort of forces the town to freeze in time?  Won't let anybody move or change jobs?  Keeps everything the same...forever?

Watch out guys, I'm the new Lana Lang. 

I loved my gay space show, and the actors and new episodes, but the thing I am most upset about losing is my fandom   I love love love this fandom.  It's the first fandom I've ever really interacted with people in, first fandom I continuously posted about, first fandom where I wrote fic in.  And now - is it all going to go away?  I keep reading posts that say 'oh, we'll be here forever,' but isn't that what we said when Queer as Folk got canceled?  And now it's an empty, sad place where I haven't been in years.  And I also loved that fandom.

Where is everybody going to go?  Are we all going to split up?I can't deal with that, you guys.  I don't want a new fandom.  I don't want anybody to leave.  I'm going to freeze you in time. 

Comments

[eleveninches.livejournal.com]

There's going to be 3-4 movies a year, thankfully, so the show will still be around. Which means hopefully fandom will be too.

[eternallycait.livejournal.com]

I now am hanging on to these movies with a deathgrip. I'm mostly excited for two hours of John making silly faces.

If anybody tries to leave fandom, I'll just go shank them with.a knife named Michael. God, I'm so punny

[(Anonymous)]

I like your punning and I am also staying right here: I am too old to switch fandoms anyway...

:)

edited for spoiler alert and so i can use my stupid icon <3 HI CAIT HI ERIN

[bookshop.livejournal.com]

3-4 a year? oh that will be AWESOME. <3

I REALLY DON'T KNOW ABOUT THIS RODNEY/JENNIFER THING THOUGH, GUYS. SURELY FANDOM WILL STICK AROUND LONG ENOUGH TO FIX THIS.

Re: edited for spoiler alert and so i can use my stupid icon <3 HI CAIT HI ERIN

[eleveninches.livejournal.com]

Re: "the thing": It doesn't really bother me, personally. All it means is I have to write stories where they break up and Rodney hooks up with John. (I'm almost done with a story about that anyway. I am so canon. Ha!)

My stupid icon has Carson in it, so I will use a JShep one instead

[eternallycait.livejournal.com]

See, even if John and Rodney try to kill each other episode and start to hate each other with a passion, and 'the thing' gets carried out to the bitter, bitter end, fandom will *always* be able to explain it away somehow.

But it really, really bothers me. I'm all narrow eyed at my episode download and have to read all fanwanky episode reviews before I can steel myself to watch.

Three or four movies a year make me feel better. I was worried we'd get one, like Firefly did.

j.shep faces make everything better

[eleveninches.livejournal.com]

Don't worry, the ep is still plenty homosexual.

I like his rapeface from when he was on csi. One day I will icon it. One day.

[eternallycait.livejournal.com]

Oh, I know.

Uh, you know what you've driven me too?

"Please," John said, moving his hands up and down the pole of his chimney sweeper, in a way that Rodney was sure John thought was subtle. "Take me flying with your magic umbrella."

"No," Rodney said irritably. "I only use that when I go to a new house in need of a nanny."

"Come on," John wheedled. "I'll paint a chalk picture just for you, and I won't even make fun of your red and white striped suit."

Rodney pursed his lips and fiddled with his manly carpet bag. "My suit which you destroyed. It's covered in ashes now."

"I couldn't sell matches forever," John said. "At least, that's what your measuring tape told me."

"The measuring tape said that you were practically perfect for me - " Rodney pinched his mouth closed all of a sudden. "Chimney sweeping is *dangerous.*

"I like being up on the roof," John said wistfully. "Jumping between them is almost like flying."

"God," Rodney said, *You're as bad as the pigeons down at the bank."

something...something...something

"I have to go find new children to nanny," Rodney said huffily. "I can't take you with me, no matter how good...playing with your broom is."

"Come on," John said, in that awful cockney accent. "No one needs nannies any more. Women have the vote - this is the beginning of a new England. You'll have time off, take me with you."

"Well fine," Rodney said, cheeks pinkening as John smiled at him, teeth gleaming white against the coal dust. "But you have to hold my bag."

And John put his arms around Rodney as he opened his flying umbrella and laughed as they flew over the buildings of London.

I'm a real good sex person. I do it all the different ways.

[eleveninches.livejournal.com]

SCREAM. Plz write me a story where John is a wealthy good-for-nothing Edwardian gentleman and Rodney is his personal valet who does his laundry and mixes his drinks.

Re: I'm a real good sex person. I do it all the different ways.

[eternallycait.livejournal.com]

"Any drink is fine McKay," John said in his not-so impeccable accent that drove Rodney mad. How did he sound so...slow all the time. "You can just mix in anything we have available."

"No," Rodney snapped, "there is a *process* to making a good drink. I can't just 'mix anything in."

Unfortunately I haven't watched that show, so I don't know what's going on. Perhaps I have a new project?

Re: I'm a real good sex person. I do it all the different ways.

[eleveninches.livejournal.com]

Don't watch the show, read the Jeeves and Wooster books. They're by P.G. Wodehouse. They're soooo funny.

Re: I'm a real good sex person. I do it all the different ways.

[eternallycait.livejournal.com]

I will report back, commander.

[pennyplainknits.livejournal.com]

THE FANDOM WILL CONTINUE!!

If I shout loud enough it will be so!!

Also, my SGA s4 DVDs arrive tomorrow \0/

[eternallycait.livejournal.com]

!!!!!!!! Sga s4. We must set up a time...where do oyu live, time zone wise?

WE WILL SURVIVE?

[pennyplainknits.livejournal.com]

I'm in Britain, so GMT+1 at the moment Umm, Vancouver is about 8 hours behind I think? Toronto 5 hours, east coast of Canada 4 or 3 1/2

We WILL Survive!

[eternallycait.livejournal.com]

Re: timezones - I just like to know what time people check their flists. I have peculiar interests.

HAVE YOU GOTTEN YOUR DVDs YET?

[pennyplainknits.livejournal.com]

They got here yesterday!!

I check it before I got to work, about 6.30. Then when I get home at the end of the day

Let's pretend I answered this two weeks ago

[eternallycait.livejournal.com]

ajfldsjflajk episode watch? together? I'll write you inane comments about John's hair and Rodney's creepy fingers of death? PLS SAY YES

Re: Let's pretend I answered this two weeks ago

[pennyplainknits.livejournal.com]

Sure! Sometime at the weekend maybe?

[ismenetruth.livejournal.com]

Oh, the fandom will last. We of the hardcore tinhat John/Rodney love will never leave. Also, with the kind of crack we churn out on a regular basis (see icon), nobody will be able to handle the detox. That shit's addictive. ;)

Seriously. Look at due South - their cancellation happened in 1997/8 and they're still kicking around, writing tons of excellent fic and squeeing all over the place. Plus, we have the promise of multiple Atlantis movies in the future. They may be bad Atlantis movies, but they'll be Atlantis movies nonetheless.

[eternallycait.livejournal.com]

Omg! Icon references the best. Fic. Ever. I feel a little bit better, what with everyone saying they'll staaaaaaay with meeeee.

I forgot about Due South, it just seems like thrre is a huge rate of attrition in non-active-canon fanons, even HP. But then, we are cracky, intense tinhatsm

[aurora]

I loved my gay space show, and the actors and new episodes, but the thing I am most upset about losing is my fandom I love love love this fandom. It's the first fandom I've ever really interacted with people in, first fandom I continuously posted about, first fandom where I wrote fic in. And now - is it all going to go away? I keep reading posts that say 'oh, we'll be here forever,' but isn't that what we said when Queer as Folk got canceled? And now it's an empty, sad place where I haven't been in years. And I also loved that fandom.

Where is everybody going to go? Are we all going to split up?I can't deal with that, you guys. I don't want a new fandom. I don't want anybody to leave. I'm going to freeze you in time.
THIS. I cannot cope with the thought of losing this fandom, I just can't. It's my happy corner of the internets, my perved-out sandbox, and I don't want everyone to take their toys and leave for someplace else. I have no inclination whatsoever to look for another show/fandom, I'm perfectly happy where I am right now. Dammit! (And yeah, I remember the QAF days, where everyone was going to stay in touch and not leave or anything. I was gone in less that six months.)

*clings*

[eternallycait.livejournal.com]

I know, I know. I *love* this fandom, the fic, yes, but,oh, it's all about the people. It's just so close, and everybody is so lovely and we're so non-crazy and accepting. I don't think I'll ever have such a good experience again. I don't want us to split apart, because even after several years, *I'm* not done yet. I feel kinda dumb saying this, but this fandom has been such a big part of my life, and I'm not ready for it to be over.

[aurora]

It's just so close, and everybody is so lovely and we're so non-crazy and accepting. I don't think I'll ever have such a good experience again. I don't want us to split apart, because even after several years, *I'm* not done yet. I feel kinda dumb saying this, but this fandom has been such a big part of my life, and I'm not ready for it to be over.
I FEEL EXACTLY THE SAME WAY. I'm still way too much in love with SGA fandom for us to break up. *clings to all the awesome people*

[elbomac.livejournal.com]

*RODNEY/JOHN CHEATING ON EACH OTHER D: D: D;
*They are seperated and angsty AND THERE MAY NOT BE A HAPPY ENDING D: D:
*THREESOMES/MORESOMES. I'm sorry, I know some people like this, but I can not cope.
*Atlantis seceding from earth D: D: D:
*John and Rodney break up. At any point. Or attempt suicide. Or don't like each other
*ANGST. CAN NOT COPE D: D: I READ DEATH FIC. I CRIED.

Links?

[eternallycait.livejournal.com]

Can I ask for a raincheck? I'm working like crazy for the next 24 hours. BUT I WILL FIND THE PAIN-FIC, so we can cry together. And grow roses with our tears and then send them to Gero.

[elbomac.livejournal.com]

Of course I can wait for you to BRING THE PAIN.

Good luck with work!

I'm in it to win it!

[jssangel.livejournal.com]

We can do it! Our stories were better than their's were anyway. We can keep Gays in Space alive with our endless supply of high quality crack.

Re: I'm in it to win it!

[jssangel.livejournal.com]

I can't believe I put and apostrophe in the word "theirs". That's how traumatizing this has been.

Re: I'm in it to win it!

[eternallycait.livejournal.com]

re:their's - I looked at it for a moment, and was all 'is that right? I guess it is, ok." So take that as a sympton of my very severe post-Atlantis PTSD.

Our fics *are* so much better. A lot of QAF was *make fun of the bad fic* which doesn't really happen here that often (I'm sure it does, but there's so much GOOD fic, that you never need to lower ones self.)

[day-glosocks.livejournal.com]

Whuh-what? Ended? (I'm so fucking behind *_*)
How can it end? I just started watching in May!(from S1, so I don't actually know anything that happens after S3 yet)
NOT COOL. :( I can't live without the gayspace!!! (Or the metal ziti's of awesome...)


Um, also hello. ^_^

HELLO ALSO

[eternallycait.livejournal.com]

LIFE IS OVER, BUDDY. They have cancelled sga and are replacing it with SG:Universe, aka SG:90210 :/ We are all sad pandas. They are apparently going to be making 3-4 SGA movies a year, so hopefully fandom will live on.

Re post s3: Ahhhh, s4 was so gay, it was almost up to QAF standards. I keep meaning to rewatch it, so we should have conversations about JSheps hair in various episodes.

Re: HELLO ALSO

[day-glosocks.livejournal.com]

*is impressed by your promptness*
The only good that can come of SG:U(niversity; which is what I've been calling it) is the MOCKING.
I hope they cast a bunch of hot "chix" & a dumb, talentless, pretty boy lead. See, if it's horrible enough we can laugh & call them names! (A secret part of me hopes that it's like "Sunset Tan" & everyone starts referring to Sci-Fi as E!.)

Oh teh hairs! You know, I'm actually going to dress up as Shep for halloween because I want to do the teh hairs? (Ok, ok I admit I want some badass army pants too :P)

I'm actually still polishing off s3 at the mo' but it would totally be cool if you wanted to squee about Shep's gay when I catch up.(On a side note: The man just loves to *slink* into a room! WHY?)